At the edge of sanity, Worthless days passing me by, Effectiveness waning, struggling to speak, Choking on air, vomit strewn Like living with ghosts, a putrid symphony Mental descent, life’s decaying Valley of death, sun scorched path Grey light reflecting, obscuring perspectives, Only a blank stare to greet, An inaccurate dreamlike state Like living with ghosts, a putrid symphony Mental descent, life’s decaying Frail and weak contemplating (Absurdity) Bringing to the forefront the reality of existence

Clawing up from the pit, An abysmal chasm, unscalable wall, Reaching for a light that is nigh, No spark to befell, The laborious task to draw breath In a suffocating chamber, Falling deeper into iniquity, Lack of progress When the clouds obscure the sun, Semidarkness becomes gloom, Nothing is perceived, or discernible Carrying the weight through the shadows Of a tragedy’s past, becomes impossible, Nothing to glean nor try The urge to succumb, surrender to the compulsion, There is no comfort here, No solace to be found Clawing up from the pit, An abysmal chasm, unscalable wall, Reaching for a light that is nigh, No spark to befell When the clouds obscure the sun, Semidarkness becomes gloom, Nothing is perceived, or discernible Carrying the weight through the shadows Of a tragedy’s past, becomes impossible, Nothing to glean nor try Searching for the path to egress, The perfect course to solitude Gripping for direction, a soul in decay Shaken to the core, The darkest day was in the night A profound contradiction, A defiled hallucination, Dancing in the twilight, race to nothing

Surrounded on all my sides, There was no way out, Blurred vision, whirlwind pulsation, Lathered in sweat, Fire upon the flesh, Infernal rage crossed with fear, Inhuman emotions never felt before, At the sight of cruelty, A life marred in seconds, A harrowing affair, An episode of extreme violence Ultratrauma I feared for my life One wrong move, Would have meant death, This new terrorist, Inside my mind, Caused by actions not my own, Is an internal bedeviled thief, The war inside, the enemy never capitulates, Fighting a losing battle, Callous existence Empty, loss of all passion Struggling in the new reality, Facing the truth, I have seen true evil, To relive it every night, No reprieve, no oasis of hope, Thrust in a persistent loop, It won’t cease, this is eternity Ultratrauma I feared for my life One wrong move, Would have meant death, This new terrorist, Inside my mind, Caused by actions not my own, Is an internal bedeviled thief, The war inside, the enemy never capitulates, Fighting a losing battle, Callous existence A ruinous swell of emotions, That cannot be controlled, Like a dam rupturing, The water spills over, The rocky seas do not end, The eye of the storm never arrives, The peril is stuck here, Detachment, paranoia, and rage, Substitute for all that was good, The feeling remains incontestable, Nothing works, the memory is stuck, Loop on replay, flashbacks every night, Survivor from hell.

Confronting the unseen, Traversing further and further, Trying to gain, the grasp of knowledge, A futile but boundless exercise, The deeper the endeavor, The more perilous, lacking all conceptions The mind’s eye wanders, In through the profundity, Covered in the untruths, Like a scripture entombed in ice, A grave for the wanting, A feast of ignorance, Devoid of any bliss, Confronting the unseen, Traversing further and further, Trying to gain, the grasp of knowledge, A futile but boundless exercise, The deeper the endeavor, The more perilous, lacking all conceptions The mind’s eye wanders, In through the profundity, Covered in the untruths, Like a scripture entombed in ice, A grave for the wanting, A feast of ignorance, Devoid of any bliss, Pass the fiery torch, dimly lit, So that the next one can try, Try to gain an understanding, A comprehension, for the seeker, Pass the fiery torch, dimly lit, So that the next one can try, But those that seek shall not find, For there is nothing here, No ideal, no veracity, Pass the fiery torch, dimly lit, So that the next one can try, Try to gain an understanding, A comprehension, for the seeker, Shades never seen before, Melted together in a putrescent display, A terrifying sculpture, chaos unlocked, Visions through the rebirth, Havoc wreaked, madness sown, Complete loss of grip, Forever locked in bedlam, Terror to behold... Only a timely grave awaits, only decay, A kaleidoscope of visions